RE-ENERGIZE

After driving all night from Calais to the Haute Vienne, we finally could fall asleep in a proper bed around noon or, shall I rephrase that more accurately as: ‘we crashed’ for about two hours.

In only a few hours time, a series of events gave me the energy to feel completely re-energized, physically and mentally. I was amazed how my body was able to reestablish itself, now that I had started to listen to the signals, interpret them right and act upon them.

After the ‘siesta’, I still felt very cold and I took a bath to warm my body up again. Then I drank 2 glasses of tea, honoring my feelings of thirst. I made a phone call that gave me the rest to plan the rest of the day, responding to the restless feeling about that.

About that time, my body was physically in a good position to start doing things, but mentally I was still tired, worried and slow. Responding to a question from my twin flame, I was completely frank and told him how I felt, knowing that it was not the political correct answer.

Talking some more, we both were aware that I was hitting on feelings of sadness and hurt.

I have learned in the last couple of months that the shortest, sweetest and most educational way to deal with those type of feelings, is to face them and accept the gift they hold. So, while I was listening to my twin flames voice, I felt my feelings suddenly shift towards rage and anger. At this point his dog decided to start barking at something and if my eyes had laser-skills…… we would have eaten roast dog as a meal.

I expressed that I didn’t like (at al)l to feel so frustrated and angry. And we made a few jokes on the poor barking dog.

This was apparently enough to be able to switch my position in my mind. I realized all of a sudden that although I didn’t immediately like those feelings of rage, but I was aware that these were powerful feelings. Instead of feeling mentally tired and slow….. my mental power was activated! Progress!

Just this mind shift was enough to start laughing and feel all power-up again. I became aware of an appetite, and whilst whistling a tune, I prepared myself a sandwich with an egg and mushrooms.

Having finished this meal, a beautiful analogy struck me and I told my twin flame about it.

“What just happened feels like an airplane getting ready for a flight.” I started to explain. “The pilot works with a checklist in order to get all the systems running in the right order, meanwhile checking if they run correctly.  My checklist here was something like:

• Get sleep for two hours ( check)
• Heat up the body, taking a bath ( check)
• Get the flight plan ready with a phone call ( check)
• Fill up liquids, drink something ( check)
• Start the engines, feeling and thinking processes

Noticing… he…. That engine doesn’t sound completely right… reversing and adjusting the power and …… vroemmmmm… it’s firing on all cylinders! Ready for take off! ( check)

• Fill up the fuel, eat something ( check)

All I did was listen to the signals I gave form my body, listen to them, acknowledge them as important and act upon them. Within a short period of time, I was ready to fly again!”

I thanked my twin flame for helping me to listen to the rumbling noises from the initial start of the engine, staying with me, calm and with confidence, enabling me to sort that out.

I thanked my body for giving me strong messages and for being able to re-energize in such a short period of time.