ACCEPT, LEARN, ACT?

Yesterday morning, I opened the shed where the sheep spend their nights in this period where they are having lambs. Eleven adults and 4 lambs left the shed leaving one lamb behind in a corner, in the hay. Sadly it is was dead.

I noticed how my mind and feelings were triggered into :”Could I have prevented this from happening?” I put them at night in the shed to be safe from the foxes, but what if the lamb died because of being trodden on? What is safer? The people around me assure me that it’s ‘nature’ that sometimes a lamb dies, for no apparent reason, but still….. I ask myself questions and feel responsible for their safety.

In a way, I think it’s a good reflex, to investigate the question:”Do I need to do something differently?” It starts a reflecting process and it holds a learning opportunity.  If I consider the options and choose wisely, I can move on, lesson learned. 

I am however aware that every so often I add a pinch of ‘judgment and blame’ to the mix, thinking that ”I should have done something differently, I should have avoided this from happening”.

That does little good for feeling happy and confident and in doing so I can sometimes even lose track of what I cán do ( accept it, learn from it, act upon it). And in doing so, probably creating similar situations with a lot of regret in hindsight. ( Send = receive……). This time, I didn’t go there.

This morning, I opened up the shed where the sheep spend their nights. I stood there in feeling the joy and amazement of the beauty of nature: a new lamb had just been born on the same spot I found a day earlier the dead lamb. The mother was cleaning the newborn. Half an hour later, another lamb was born, already trying to get up!

Life is beautiful and very often, happiness is obtained by just looking at its beauty and strength through tears of joy and amazement.