ALIVE

Richard and I are both in a situation that is both beautiful and scary, when it comes to the challenge of shaping our lives.

We both desire to live, practicing what we feel to be true: be true to yourself, invest your real essence in the world and you will find on your path what you need and be happy, confident and grateful for it.  Send  = receive and that is amazingly beautiful! 

We find happiness and confidence in exploring this path together, learning along the way and supporting each other. A precious and beautiful gift, to handle with care, love and understanding.  We have faith  and are very much in touch with the inner drive why we choose this path and connecting to those heartfelt sensations feels very good.

However, we were both not raised in this tradition and we have each more than 40 years of experience in shaping our lives flying from another angle. That is not released overnight. 

We both have lived in the last couple of years, without the need to earn our own money.
At this point in time, in the process of shaping our lives, it is the awareness of these two aspects of our past, that is at times simply called ‘scary’.

I feel, that doesn’t need to be denied. I am aware that everything I put my energy in gets bigger. Turning a blind eye to something that is clearly there will only make them wave and shout for more attention. But going down the drain of total panic is also not my preferred way of handling these fears.

So, I talk to my worries and scary feelings. I acknowledge them and appreciate them for warning me that there is something that needs attention. And besides acting upon the underlying need to go find a paid job and investing my energy in the things that really need attention ‘right now’, I keep in mind what my motivation is for living my live based on my new perception of it: I feel ‘completely alive, using my full potential’!