REMARKABLE?

Reality……

I have had an amazing week with reality. Reality has presented me a wide range of experiences, from ‘ordinary’ via ‘remarkable’ to ‘bizarre’.  This scale of labels is not uncommon.  In any given week there are a lot of ordinary things, some remarkable things and very often also a few bizarre things.

This week however, everything seemed to be turned upside down, inside out or played backwards. Normal events, like eating my breakfast at the table, suddenly felt surreal. Remarkable events, like having lunch in a T-shirt outside on the 29^th of December, felt just right. Some very special moments with twin flame magic energy in it, felt only natural and precisely the way it has to be.

My twin flame and I had 5 days in a row to spend together. Our first time  together without having to keep an eye on the clock, without having to do something else.  This was a magical Christmas gift to us and a real landmark in our relationship: being limitless together in reality.

We had only spend about 20 hours in each other’s company in the last 8 months, ever since that day in may where looking in each other’s eyes made us feel love in a degree we had never experienced before in this lifetime. We had emailed each other about 600 pages of text (each) feeling completely connected on soul level. And now, we were experiencing how our beings would respond to being with each other all day.

We had to pinch ourselves and each other regularly and we both had difficulties to feel reality as real.

My twin flame said a few times that it seems that in a twin flame relationship, everything seems to go reversed. Normally, two people meet and build up a closeness and intimacy in there togetherness doing ordinary activities.

We already felt we ‘knew’ each other, on soul level, had some really magical spiritual energetic connections, just by looking  or by a simple touch  … feeling so intensely close and intimate when our souls fully connect. With this as a starting point.. we needed now to take steps towards having a meal together, or walk with the dogs..  very normal things, feeling very odd! My twin flame joked  that, working backwards from the normal procedure, we will probably meet each other next week.

Normally, spending a few days together for the first time with somebody, comes with some awkwardness, or shyness and not immediately feeling at home and the need to adjust to each other’s energy. So there, a certain feeling of ‘bizarreness’ is normal.  Here, I found myself so at home, with no need to adjust to his energy ( since we feel we vibrate in the same frequency). It felt so normal to be together in that aspect, that precisely that  struck me again as very remarkable.

I completely lost track of ‘bizarre’ and ‘normal’ and just let it wash over me.

There was however a moment, after these 5 days, that really struck me as bizarre. I had been talking for 5 days in English. That went remarkably easy, considering that I am Dutch. When I started to talk in Dutch again, it struck me that I had difficulties in finding Dutch words!!! Bizarre!!!

Conclusion so far:

There is a lot of fun to be had when ordinary things become unreal and bizarre things feel very right!

HURRAH

Subsequent to writing about  my resolution to start ‘polishing my perception’ on reality, in order to have fun and be happy, I invented a method for doing so.

I am experimenting with it, to see what happens.

Here is the thought:

Completely in line with the Law of Attraction does sending out ‘bad’ vibes only lead to receiving ‘bad’ vibes. Do I like feeling even more bad vibes?  Do I like a reality in which I feel ‘bad’? Well….. not really! So, in order to feel good vibes, I need to send ‘good vibes’.

But how to act when I am confronted with things that really tempt me to express my irritation and frustration about? ‘The ‘cold feet’, ‘wet clothes in rainstorms’, ‘dull tasks to do’, ‘screaming cats’, ‘missing socks in my laundry’ in this world, among very very many other things?

‘Ignoring’ them  is just a mild way of putting energy in dismissing them…. That may help for a few minutes.. but everything that gets noticed and provokes a strong emotion in me, tends to have the need to be acknowledged, judging by the fact that they will return in knocking on my ‘door’.

Accepting them, is a very wise spiritually sound advice. Yeah, well…. It fits with the theory of send = receive.. My only trouble is:”How to do it, in a practical way, if airing my dislike is such an obvious almost automatic thing to do?”

In order to stop this question biting its own tale ( because I was resisting the solution to accept things I don’t like and therefore feeling worse and worse), I approached it with a few guidelines I like to use on this type of problem:

• -          See Life as a  Game, have fun and play
• -          Stuck on a position? I have to actively switch my position.. look at it from a different angle.. do something different....
• -          There are only Good Things in life: some to enjoy right away, some to learn from.
• -          Be aware

So, I have to acknowledge the things I don’t’ like also for being Good, something to learn from. I am, in this game allowed to differentiate between things I enjoy right away and learning experiences. But investing a lot of energy in saying ‘NO’ to them, trying to make them go away, will be counterproductive.

Then I switched position, from taking it all very serious, to playing with it.  Here is what I decided to do:.

-         If there is something in my reality I like, I say things like:”Thank you”, or ‘Yes, please’ and I enjoy them right away.

-          If I become aware of feeling that something in my reality is bothering me, I do accept it a s a learning experience, to start sending good vibes, by saying:”Hurrah”.

In doing so, I am accepting it in my reality as something to have fun with, to practice ‘sending out good vibes on’ and in doing so, I feel better about it.

My feet may still be cold, my clothes still wet, the task the same, but it’s far easier to open up for receiving  an improvement in the situation, if I allow my mind to ‘move’ towards the desired ‘fun’ and  ‘pleasure’. And that’s exactly what shouting ‘hurrah’ can achieve.

IMAGINATION and REALITY

How much influence do I have on what shows up in ‘reality’ using my imagination?

With my thoughts, I can influence how I feel about things that occur in my life. I know that if I  consider something to be annoying, disturbing or bad,  changes are that I will indeed not feel very happy about it. If I do think of the same thing as a chance, a gift or a possibility for me, I probably feel much better about it. So, finding the ‘silver lining’ in an event, using my imagination, can improve the mood I experience  within seconds. I can feel ‘really’ better, having this influence on my own mood.

My thoughts on an event that yet has to take place, can actually shape the  development of that event in reality, in about the same way. If I assume in advance that the person I am going to meet will not be able to help me to my liking, he will most likely indeed not give me the best of service. He probably picks up my ‘doubtful’ vibes and responds accordingly. And even if he is his full-service delivering self, I may not recognize it as such, being in the mood of expecting bad service.

This sure is all within the scope of ‘send = receive’.

But I do wonder, can the effects stretch even further? There are some things I don’t like about ‘reality’. Do I get ‘cold feet’, ‘wet clothes in rainstorms’, ‘dull tasks to do’, ‘screaming cats’, ‘missing socks in my laundy’ in my reality because I don’t like them?  

For the effect of being ‘unhappy’, It is of no importance if I create them because I don’t like them, or that I am bothered by it, not accepting their presence without any judgments…..They are there and I don’t like it!

But, sometimes I do wonder what the power of my imagination in relation with reality is……

Is it able to actually  shape my reality  in an unlimited scope?  Or do I only polish my perception of life and reality with it?……

I can obviously start with ‘polishing my perception’ to enjoy what I like, have fun and be as happy as can be…….but still…. I wonder……

CREATING A FRENCH CV

I live in France, I am open for suitable possibilities to earn an income and so I made an appointment with the local employment office to discuss the possibilities in this region, for me. They requested me to bring an up-to-date CV.

My most recent CV was 4 years old and in Dutch, so it didn’t only need a quick update, it needed a complete make-over!

First, I looked for a French example on the internet and I transferred my information into it. While  doing this, I noticed that my energy drained away and I experienced no fun in the activity.

I know these days, that when this happens, I should do something else. So I wondered what I was missing here and I saw that I was creating a CV from an idea of ‘how it needs to be done’. But what I was doing had no relation with the good energy flow that comes from taking my own needs into account as well!

So, this concept went into the bin and I decided on the spot that I wanted to create a CV that would 100% feel good to me.  I believe in ‘send = receive’. In practicing what I have learned about that principle, I have to be 100% satisfied with what I send, in order to receive what I really want. And what I want is to earn money with using all my versatile qualities.

The minute I decided that I wanted to make a 100% energetic sound CV to me, my energy came back to me and I immediately had a few ideas how to put this together.

I had found recently a rapport that was made about me in 2003, when I worked as  a middle manager. It was based on the Belbin-method of team roles. When I found it, the other day, I still found its description of  me  ‘spot on’.

I translated it in French and I added ‘my soul dream’ to it. Those few lines where the result of a lot of soul searching this summer, reaching for the essence of ‘what makes me happy, to the core’, stripped from all practicalities.

I added my work-experience and education to the file and these were the basic ingredients for my CV-to-be.

I just started playing with it. I made lines shorter, arranged items in coherent groups, trying to be as clear and short as possible.

By the time I was happy with the content, I also wanted it to look nice. I was faced with an interesting challenge. It was too much to fit one page, but having two pages… the pages looked  too empy to my liking.….

I was very pleased with the creative, colorful way I found later to implement all the information on 1 page.  I was getting close to the point of ‘100% good energy’ now. Still, I was missing something.. it didn’t completely fit together as I wanted it to be and I just let it ‘simmer’ in the back of my head.

Letting my mind ‘blow’ during a walk with the dog on the terrain, being open for answers, an image appeared in my mind. I looked more closely at it, felt it was representing me in a way I liked. So, I decided to find such an image on the internet and add it to my CV.

I found a nice picture of this item,  flipped it horizontally and changed the colors to match the design for my CV. Then I imported it in the file.

Just following my intuition on ‘where to put it’ and then changing what else needed to be changed in size or position… within a few minutes it all came together, firing of this energy spark in me indicating:”Now it is 100% good”.

KEEPING A BLOG

In 2012, I came across the Law of Attraction for the first time, by reading the book 'The Secret' by Rhonda Byrne.

I was intrigued by the idea that it is possible to shape my life by being aware of the principle "send = receive" and I opened up, wanting to explore more about this idea.

The owner of this book, turned out to be my twin flame, a few months later.

I had never heard of the ‘twin flame’ phenomenon before: two people sharing one soul, being connected on an energetic level.  I had lived my lived for 40 years in a really  ‘down to earth’ style, with no spiritual interest what so ever.

However, one evening in may, I gave in to the undeniable inexplicable desire to hold him close , just for once, as a farewell-hug.

In that moment of connection, on a very deep level, it was instantly clear to us both, in holding each other tight and feeling whole,  that this was a huge gift from the Universe and there was an assignment attached to it.

We had no clue what had hit us, since the whole experience was completely amazing and unheard of. But... I was curious enough and I wanted surely to find it out... so I opened up to finding answers here, to become aware of the twinflame connection.

This was the beginning of a very interesting and highly intense rollercoaster style learning process. I informed my twin flame about every step of the way by e-mail: my questions, my ways of exploring, the insights I got, the experiences I had in testing hypotheses, the amazing results I got from doing all that....

In the encouragement of my twin flame, I found the inspiration to go on, although this process shook my world thoroughly! Very often I was wondering “What is happening here?”

Despite the ‘turbulence’ this process caused in my life, I had never felt more alive!

I learned so much in so little time!

While learning more about the ‘dynamics’ of life, understanding for the first time really the yin/yang principle and finding so much evidence that the Law of Attraction does work, always..... I peeled of many layers of the onion that I call ‘me’.

In overcoming fears and unhelpful patterns ( the layers of the onion), I came more and more in touch with my own essence, feeling my own power.

That feels Good!

It makes me feel happy and confident and I would very much like that to be contagious!

So, starting today, I will joyfully put the  fruits of my curiosity, inspiration and imagination also in the basket called ‘the internet’.

Enjoy the Good Things in life, you deserve it!