WHAT HAPPENS IF I DON'T FOLLOW MY OWN ADVICE?

I am aware that my life is constantly under the influence of the Law of Attraction: send = receive.

I am also aware that I can influence the process, by paying attention to what is happening and act wisely and actively upon the signals that I get.

I know now that, sticking to just a few principles, I feel more and more ‘really heartfelt happy and confident’, embracing ‘life’ as wonderful.

This morning, I discovered that I did something, yesterday afternoon, that can be described as ‘choosing not to stick to the principles’.

Doing that,  is always a good way of ending up with something I can enjoy as a learning experience, rather than as a nice event in itself… and it wasn’t any different this time.

I had no clue what I had done. I only noticed in the evening that I didn’t feel ‘happy and confident’ and pleased with life as it presented itself. There was definitely ‘something missing’ and I couldn’t find the ‘core’ of the problem.

This morning, I noticed that the same unpleasant feeling was still present in me.

I had no intention to spend my whole day feeling like that, so I asked for clarity on which 'door' I had shut in myself, that made that I felt unpleasant tension, a lack of flowing energy.
I was definitely not pleased with what I was ‘receiving’, so I gathered that I could find a valuable clue in what I was sending.

In wanting to go to the bottom of this. I talked to myself and the Universe. I reflected on my activities, thoughts and feelings of yesterday afternoon, finding the point where my mood changed.

Suddenly it struck me. I knew which ‘door’ I had shut and when. It was the door called Trust.

I noticed that my mood had flipped just after writing an email in which I said that I had already done many things that day and that I felt like playing my saxophone.

Instead of following my own advice, I decided that it was still too early in the afternoon and I should spend some time on filling in my father’s tax papers in a special computer program. I had promised him to do so in this weekend. I decided that I might as well do this now:”Let’s get it over with!”

It didn't go according to plan, at all!
I thought I'd found a bug in the program and I had to fill in part of it twice, because it wasn't saved. (Not amusing!) 
But, it turned out that  I  wasn't paying enough attention and therefore things went pear shaped, unpleasant and time-consuming.

Did I listen to these distinct signals that I should be doing something else? No.... I carried on.

In hindsight, I concluded that I should have played the saxophone , trusting my body to signal to me what I need.

I had already done a lot of computer and thinking work that day. My body was asking for the joy of unwinding in an active happy vibe, to balance things out and to recharge for activities in the evening. Did I acknowledge that? No! I chose to consider saxophone playing as a waste of time, in the way of more important things that needed my attention.

In doing so, I almost literally said to myself and the signals I got whilst still feeling connected with happiness and confidence:”I don’t trust that you provide me with what I need”.

Is it any wonder ( send = receive) that ever since that moment, I felt restless, slightly unsure of what to do next and what to expect from it?

All it took was trusting my own advice, that playing a few tunes on my saxophone was exactly what I needed at that moment. And also trusting, that a good moment will present itself for filling in the tax form, later this weekend.

And furthermore, that I would most likely fill it in, in the blink of an eye, giving it the right amount of attention. Probably I should even having fun in doing it, as a result.

I had the opportunity. I was aware that I chose to do something that my body didn’t ask for and I persisted, overruling and ignoring  all the warning signs of 'do something else'.... sigh.

I could have had the joy of playing the saxophone for 20 minutes, filling in the taxform in the blink of an eye and a dozen other nice activities in the evening. In steed, I felt unpleasant and without energy for ( too) many hours.

After finding this out, I had an intense conversation with myself, opening the door of Trust again.

All day, I confirmed to my body signals that I trust them, simply by acting upon them. That meant, by the way that halfway writing this blog entry, I had to boil and eat an egg and dance in the living room to a good song on the radio J.